When you cannot keep silent in a meeting and the "colonotonia" body type

I was in this middle management meeting and before I went to the meeting, I resolved that I will keep silent. I did for some time, but towards the end of the meeting, eventually I started raising my hand
and then I started talking a lot. The resolution didn't work.

That's one reason I wanted to leave, and left the that council in the first place. Because I seem to be
always seeing issues which maybe aren't issues. Then I talk and everybody gets stressed.
And I get stressed. And wished I had just shut my mouth. But it seems I can't. So better not to have attended the meeting.

But because of a promotion, I am back with this council. I had no choice.

Anyway, I will try again next time. Or maybe when this COVID thing is over, I should just
send my staff to attend the meetings. That way I need not talk when I think there is something amiss. If they don't see the issue then neither should I.

WWJD I wonder. I think that maybe He'd keep silent rather than rant. I think that maybe He will not talk much. Maybe.

Maybe I took after my Dad. I think maybe he talked a lot too during meetings. I heard he was always
the spokeperson for controversial issues or he always advocated for those who won't.

Or well maybe, it's about this "8-body type-principle" where mine, according to Ptr. Soh, the Korean practitioner in Baguio City, is "Colonotonia" (see https://www.blueroseacu.com/what-8/). Quoting from this website

"2. Colonotonia – the constitution of metal minor, born with hyperactive large intestine and a weak gallbladder, highly ambitious for the will to power, very intuitive and visionary. Born to be a leader. Should not eat meat except fish."

Sigh. I have been contesting this "born to be a leader" characteristic because I really think I am not. I resigned twice after being forced to be division head at PhilRice. I again resigned at BSU after being "designated without consent" to be a center director. No, I was not cut to be a leader. I am only "pakialamero" hehe. Yet he did successfully treat me during one of my worst "cough" ever (I was given third-gen antibiotics, and was on steroid for a month but nothing worked. I would still cough incessantly and would even pee my pants while coughing.).  He treated me with acupuncture for "colonotonia" body type, and it worked (which is, by the way, the procedure for confirming a body type).

He said, "It is because of how I was raised, and my not following the right food for me," that my being a leader didn't surface. (daw, buti na lang isip isip ko naman).

Anyway, back to my talking a lot during meetings, I don't like it but I can't help it. The curse of my body type I guess.

I just hope anyway that my rants will result to better decisions.//04232020